I was made to be wide-eyed all the days of my life.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Blog Seperation Anxiety

I am debating on whether or not to start another blog. You know, namely for photography.

One for my life,
One for my photography.

So they can be separate. Part of me thinks it would be more professional, more distinct.
This and That, you know.

But here is the thing.

My photography and my life are not two different things.
They are together. They are very much a part of one another

So, I think I am going to keep it together. This is my life, and this is what it looks like.
Yes, it might not be that professional. But, I am working at it.

And I am excited to do big things.
To go places and see people and hear things and realize that God is in the small moments as well as the big. He is in the everyday as well as the everyotherday.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Summer in the Citiy

Its July in Minnesota. The Sun is shining, and I wear a sundress as the wind breezes through my car's open window, arm wide, hand extended, bouncing up and down and up again to rhythm of the wind.
Its July in Minnesota.

I got home Thursday. Shot a Wedding on Saturday, and leave again on Thursday.
This time for Canada. Calgary, to be exact.

I'm very excited for this up and coming wedding. Not only do I get to fulfill my challenge of getting out of the country at least once a year, I get to see my dear friend Becky.
Who is getting married, naturally.

Ahhh, man. Its summer in Minnesota.
Love it. Love it. Love it.

Here are some images from Jessica and Jared's Wedding this weekend:

Friday, July 24, 2009


I'm home.

I don't feel like writing very much.
But I just wanted you to know that I am home.

Monday, July 20, 2009

woah, nellie.

time and consequence

Today is my supposedly last day in the office.

Of editing, at least.
"It's finished?" You ask.

Which is frustrating.
I have to go home and leave this thing in the hands of another.
I have to go home a leave this thing undone.

Which is frustrating.
Today, I am going to try and get alllllllllot done. But, we will see. We will see.

I was thinking how I sorta feel like this project alot lately.

So undone, so unfinished. I want to be complete. I want to be a finished product. I want to be perfect.
But I'm not.
And its frustrating.

The beautiful thing though, is that He doesn't just leave me in the hands of another. Not at all.
Not at all.

It just takes time.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Grace upon grace


I take a new path soon.
The fall is coming.

And I need to make a decision.


Sometimes, both seem less traveled.

You Gotta Want It

We played kickball lastnight with all the new staff.

You gotta want it.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

slowing down

The Hotel is quiet these days.

The halls kinda creak when you walk down them. I'm sure they have always creaked, its just that you hear it now. Now that it is so quiet.

Everyone left.
Everyone, except a brave quiet few.

The break has been good. A quieting of the soul. I am able to get aloooot done because there is no one to distract me, no students running around, no clanging of the class bell.
Its quiet.
So its good.

At the same time, though, its weird.
Because there is no one to distract me.
There are no students running around, the bell does not clang.

On days like today, when I am up in my office listening to the wind go through the trees, watching the little humming bird out side my window, I am a rest.
But, I am also restless.

This hotel was made for something.
And its unnerving sometimes that its not doing just that.

Tonight will be the real test. All the are taking off this afternoon,
it will be just me and a few other permanent staff here.

I am looking forward to it.
Me and this old hotel of mine.

I like it here, you know. People keep asking me if I am going to come back next year and work on stuff, you know. If I've enjoyed my time here.
"Yes," I tell them, "I've enjoyed it very much. Its old. I like it here."

Will I come back next year? I don't know.
Maybe. Maybe not.
It depends on what I am doing, where I am, who I am.

Today its a quiet day here.
The buzzing of my computer fan keeps me company, the thoughts in my head of this summer pass the time. I am getting things done.

Oh, and I cut my bangs again.

Short style.
Short style.

That's all.

Monday, July 13, 2009

an idea

This Fall
I have nothing to do.

I am sorta starting to think about it.

There is an idea of a map in my head.

ahhh such possibilities.

Portland, Maine to Portland, Oregon?

I really wanna do it.


Shoot my head off

I've been shooting a lot lately.

All the images are just sitting on my computer.
Here are some.

Friday, July 10, 2009


Graduation is tonight.
The lobby is buzzing with kids, running around, trying to get everyone's contact informations.

Its crazy.
Alot of the staff are leaving tomorrow as well.
Its crazy.

The Summer is wrapping up. And its only July.

I like living.
I really do.
Its just crazy sometimes.

Monday, July 6, 2009

a meditation on the simple

"You give me life."

Dear Julie,


I hope you have a beautiful day today. Its a good day to be alive, you know. Regardless of all the crap that goes on in the world.
Its still a good day to be alive.

This is something that I am learning.
Even last night as we talked for that little bit over facebook chat.
Its a good thing to live, to embrace what God has laid before us, to waste our lives in the pursuit of the Things Permanent. The Things Eternal. The Man Jesus.

here are the images from that day. That fun day when we went into town and took pictures and drank some of that sparkling water from the fountains that didn't taste very good.

You are beautiful.
I love you.

(p.s. consider this chocolate on your desk)